if tomorrow was it?

For those of you who don't know, on a Thursday night I love to watch TV. Most other nights I can go without (except for Mondays with Offspring and Q&A and Lateline, and Tuesdays with NCIS) but on a Thursday from 8.30 until 11.30 I watch - Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives and Private Practice. I like them all, but Grey's is one show that always gets me thinking. 

Tonights episode was almost unbearable - for two reasons. 

1. It was a weird musical episode - it works for Glee, nothing else. 

2. One of the most in-depth characters on the show could have possibly died - and this is what I want to talk about. 

Death. It could happen to any of us at any time. We could be driving for a weekend away and have just been proposed too and a truck could come out of nowhere and collect us in our car. Or we could step off the tram and some lunatic driver doesn't stop and collects us and our latte as we walk across to the footpath. Or God forbid, we could be struck down with a debilitating disease that no one can cure. 

Ok, I think we get the idea. 

But my point is, if we died tomorrow - what would you be doing right now? 

Who would you call? 

Who would you forgive?

What food would you eat? 

What would you want to see? 

What would you want to say? 

Who would you kiss?  

See, if we knew that tomorrow was our last day we could all answer those six questions easily. But we think that we have all the time in the world to call, to forgive, to indulge our tastebuds, to see the one person we would want to see more than anything, say the things we never thought we could and we'd most certainly kiss the person we were to afraid too. 

But why don't we do that anyway? It's because we are scared of what might happen next. The person we call may hang up in our ear. Our apology may fall on deaf ears. We might get fat......etc etc

I want to live in a way that considers what happens next but then goes right on and does what I want to do when I want to do it. I'm going to try that tomorrow - maybe you can answer just one of the questions above ...

Oh, and by the way - if you didn't see Grey's, Callie lived - and she said yes!