Slack, that's the only word for it.

I made a commitment. A commitment to myself that I was going to blog about my life, but it wasn't about the blog. It was about doing what I wanted to do and the blog was a way to keep me on track.

So far, no blog. And yep, not doing what I wanted to do. It's nearly March 2011 and so far I haven't gotten of my bum to do anything other than what I was doing already.

Ok, I did go to one Bikram Yoga class, but that nearly killed me and since then I've forgotten about my promise. The promise I made to myself to do something with my life. Not egotistically, but I'm a pretty great guy with a whole bunch of potential and I'm just living my life day in and day out without a purpose.

Time to do something about it....

3 days time...

in three days time i will be 27. does that mean i am officially not in my mid-20's anymore?

i know that 27 is still young, (unless you're 16, then 27 is practically dead) however i can't but feel that i am unaccomplished. sure, there's been things that have gotten in my way over time - there was the church (long story - explain that later), coming out, finding someone who i thought i'd spend the rest of my life with only to discover they are a sociopath - literally - and now i feel like i am just starting to discover that i don't actually know what it is i've done and even worse - what is it that i want to do? 

so a quick run down for you on my life thus far. 

born in a small town called bowral.

moved to queensland at age 2. 

attended primary school.

attended high school. 

was 'saved' and became a pentecostal christian. 

started thinking i might be gay. 

tried to suppress my sexuality for fear of going to hell. 

was outed by a little old lady from church and ex communicated. 

lost 90% of my 'friends'.

moved to brisbane to be with a boy. 

didn't work out.

moved to melbourne for a job. 

met a boy. 

fell in love. 

thought he was going to be the one. 

discovered he was and is a sociopath who left me in a lot of debt. 

found the courage to leave.

moved into my own place. 

present day - have no idea what to do. 

not a comprehensive list, but a general idea. 

now i'm on a voyage of self discovery. there are a few things i want to accomplish in the coming year and i'll share that here. 

1. stop being selfish (i don't think we mean to be selfish, we should just be more selfless)

           how? join a charity organisation to volunteer at

2. take a risk (i've never failed at anything because i haven't taken any risks big enough to fail)

        what? move overseas, open a business or something else

3. focus on being a better person for me

            huh? it's not about finding someone to be with, it's about being happy with me. yoga will be a good start. 

4. be passionate about something

        and that would be? not sure yet - writing? photography? travel? all of the above?

so there we have it. a 4 step plan. hopefully it will lead me to do what it is i want to be doing. 

let's see hey....